It seems even stranger in the light of day that my marriage is over. I'm trying not to be too hurt or bitter. In some ways maybe I wanted this, as well. Things have been bad between Mara and I for a long time. And while I held out hope that things could get better between us once Mama moved out, I never really believed. Mara didn't seem to me like she wanted them too. Finding out that there is someone else and that she's been planning to leave me for some time now actually explains a lot. I may not be happy with what I found out, but in a way I feel better just knowing. Now I only have to figure out where I go from here.