I'm trying to talk myself out of quitting USX. Admittedly, I'm not trying very hard. I am angry and hurt right now. I've not drawn a paycheck in three weeks, and that last one was only for $250. No one at USX can tell me why I didn't get paid this week. The Payroll Dept. says that I have no trips turned in to be paid, to which my response is “bullshit!” Since it was FEMA standby, they tell me that I need to talk to Benny L___. Well, I called him five times yesterday. He never returned my call.

Long story short, I didn't get paid, and no one at USX gives a fuck. I went to bed last night (I'm at home, because my load delivers in Statesville), intending to get up today and go deliver my load and just keep on rolling. But I got up this morning thinking that it might just be time to cut my losses. Since I went solo, I've only had one good week. We can't survive like this. A string of halfway decent weeks would be fine, but even a great week means nothing if it's followed by three terrible ones.

I don't know what I'll do. I don't want to do anything rash. But at this point it just doesn't make sense to stay with USX. I'm not making any money there. We need money.