Had another one of those days with Mara. I was feeling lonely and lost. I just wanted to spend a little time with her online. But when she came online she didn't have much to say to me. All I got was the standard buy-offs. Whenever it became painfully obvious that she was ignoring me, she'd toss me an “I love you” or some such. I guess maybe she does this to me all the time and it only becomes an issue for me when I'm feeling down.

I think there are serious problems in this relationship. But we find things things to distract ourselves from examination. So nothing ever gets said or solved, and Mara and I continue to drift farther apart.