I just went through our back mail. I was actually kind of surprised that we have back mail, since Mara has been home for many weeks now. Heck, she even had a couple of birthday cards that she hasn't opened. Anyway, that's not the reason I'm posting. I was looking at how many bills we have due. I don't know which ones have been paid and which haven't. I'll have to talk to Mara about that later. But it scares me to see how much money we're expected to put out here. We don't have it. We simply do not have it. And we won't until Mara gets back to work. We're going under here, and I'm the only one who sees it. What are we going to do? Part of me wishes Mara would just get back on the truck. We did fine, money-wise, as a team. But that almost cost us our marriage. I won't willingly go back to those days. We have to do something, though, and we're going to have to do it soon.