We need to do something about this house. There are so many issues that need to be addressed here. I firmly believe that part of the reason that the house is in this shape is that Mara and I haven't been around to take care of it. Sure, we got home once a week for a year and a half while we were on that dedicated run, but as hard as we ran we just didn't have any energy.

Anyway, I'm sitting here with a fan blowing air on me. The air conditioning has not worked right for years. We have plumbing problems. And no matter how many times we get people to come out here, these problems don't get fixed. I refuse to keep giving these people money simply to come out and hand us a bill. I want this taken care of.

As for the house itself, there's a lot of work to be done. I feel like we live in a junkyard sometimes. I just went into the kitchen to get some tea, and marvelled at how normal it has become for us to weave in and out of obstacles. Right now there's a pile of clothes in the floor in the dining room (they came out of the truck). Our two coolers are sitting in the kitchen. The ironing board is set up in the kitchen. This house suffers from incredible clutter. On top of that, there are the repair issues. We never finished the remodelling of the bathroom (Largely due to my laziness). The floors look like shit because of dropped paint and damage. I could make a long list here, but I'll just say that there's a lot of work to be done here and it's just not getting done.

Thst's the main reason I think I'll be coming home for good soon. Simply put, I need to be home. Simple as that. If we could just put in a little work every day, and then work on the house on the weekends, we could make this back into a beautiful place. But we can only do that if we're here. Ok. Let me change that. I can only do this if I'm here.