Mara really hurt me tonight. Sometimes I just need to talk to someone. Mara wasn't very interested. At one point on the phone she was so completely uninterested that at one point she was doing the perfunctory conversation (yeah, uh huh, etc) and I wasn't even talking. Then a bit later she came back on text messaging; I guess figuring she'd better hear me out. It wasn't long before I realized I was talking to talking to myself again. So I just signed off of mobile AIM. She sent me a message on my phone about 15 minutes saying that she'd had a phone call. I guess I'm just disappointed. I'm tired and needed to hear a friendly voice. Instead I was made to feel like a little kid tugging on his mother's skirt, trying to get attention just to tell her something of importance only to the child.

Maybe it's payback. She said that I had no interest in her life. Apparently I didn't show enough enthusiasm about her new job. Hell, I've talked to her four times today on the phone about it. I know all the details. I actually got a kick out of how excited she is about it. But I guess I just didn't say the magic word, whatever that may be. I'm happy for her but I'm still standing knee-deep in shit. Asking for enthusiasm about anything is asking a lot.

Well, I actually wanted to talk about her job a bit but couldn't hold her attention long enough to get around to it. Man, I just want to get some sleep and forget this day.