I feel guilty about the things I've been saying about Mara lately. I should be more mindful of what I say in anger, whether it's true or not. I read Mara's blog this morning before I left. I'd sworn I would never do that again. But I felt like I should for some reason. I'm glad I did. It explained a lot about Mara's recent volatility. My heart really went out to her. I know how she feels when she talks about feeling like she has no purpose.

I've asked her to go down to the Battleground with me this weekend. We haven't done that in ages. We need to mix things up a bit. Change rythm. I feel so positive about things. I wish Mara could share that. If nothing else it'll help us both to get out of the damned house.